She says he doesn't love me, he wants to possess me. Its unnatural, she says. How she saw me on Sunday was the happiest she'd seen me for ages, because I was my 'old' self again. She says I've lost all my friends and I'm wasting the holidays - like its become a habit. She says not to believe that I've changed him, that I'm different; his insecurities are painfully obvious.
I wish I could say that I didn't listen, that I took no notice, that I didn't believe a word of it. I promised P I wouldn't listen, I promised but I.....I want my life back........I don't know what to do.
I told him he's not controlling me but he is whether he likes it or not. I'm scared of him. I'm scared of hurting him so much that I can't be honest with him. He's changed me. He's taken so much out of me that I've got nothing left to give. This can't carry on.....
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Gosh, I so know how you're feeling and I was a lot older than 15 when it happened to me. The problem is being in love with someone who just makes you unhappy. I kept my relationship going for 3 years, when I should have finished it after the 1st. 2 years of unhappiness with someone I eventually left because I couldn't bear to be around. Good luck.
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