21st April 1995

What the hell is wrong with me - I really don't know a good thing when I see one (???).  I don't realize how lucky I am. P is special - its taken me a while to realize it but something Vicky said today made me realize I am lucky. He treats me like a queen and I know I don't deserve him. I'm never gonna find anyone else like him. As Vicky said 'I've definitely caught a good'en!' I guess I've been taking his feelings for granted and haven't been treating him as well as I should. He deserves more from me. I guess its time to wake up and start treating him right. He's so good to me. Its gonna take someone very special to live up to my standards after going out with P. The thought of falling in love with him doesn't quite seem so scary anymore - I may even enjoy it....