16th April 1995

I wish I knew how I felt so that I know what to write but, I dont know,  I just seem to be unable to feel anything anymore. I dont know if I should be over the moon or scared out of my head. All I can do is listen to other people and how they feel - in the hope that maybe I'll be able to relate to some of what they say. But I just seem immune to any kind of feeling or opinion - it must sound stupid. Maybe I'm not ready for  all this - maybe I'm taking things too quickly but....maybe I should be in love then again I may even be in love -  I just don't know.