5th May 1995

Something weird's going on & I just don't know who to believe anymore. I hate it cos I had a really good time with with P today. In fact I aways do. Its just when  Sally was Ok with me too. In fact she was really nice - I can't believe that either of them would lie to me. I wish I could keep them separate cos they both bring out the worst in each other and I hate it. P says if I left him it would tear him apart. He was almost crying. Its kinda scary but he makes me and yet safe at the same time. Is that really selfish? I guess I've kinda brought on all the hassels between P & S myself cos I'm too honest with both of them  - which kinda makes me two faced. Why does life have to be so confusing???